no, No, NO!!!

I have been doing so great in my weight losing program , Easy Life. That was on till this monday.
I actully had red numbers, RED. I had gained some. Not much, but still. I had gained.

0,2 Kilo!

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I hope that this is not something that will happen a lot. I know that the body dosen´t always weigh the same, so to go up en down a few kilo are okay. But not know, not yet.

Still have 1,8 kilo I want to lose and hopefully before February 12.

That´s my dream. Maybe I will make it, maybe I want.

I have to say that I really really hope I make it.
Or els London want I hoped it would be.

It will be the same but I will feel like I´m cheating. Because a trip to London was supose to be my gift my self when I had made my goal.

So I have that my next weighing will be much better it was this monday. And I really hope that it will be a green number. I don´t think I can take one more weighing with red numbers.

 

*LovE*

I lost 1,8 kilo

I´m getting closer and closer to my goal. In a year I wont to lose 30 kilo. Now four months and two weeks later have I lost  total of 28,4 kilo.

So I have to say that I´m a little proud of my self.
Now I have to lose 1,6 kilo, and that hopefully before february 11. That´s my last weighing before I´m going to London, and I really really hope that I have lost all 30 kilo before then.

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But now will also the biggest job start, the job that it is to hold my weight down. To get my body to stay at the weight I want to be in. I´m also scared that I will gain all and a little more over a little period of time.

Weight is not funny, not funny at all. 

*LovE*

 

1,4 kilo, a total of 26,6 kilo

I have just been on this years first weighing, and even if it has been Christmas and I have been eating some (not much) candy I have still lost a little. And that I´m happy about. Not the candy part, but the losing weight part.

So  have a goal that´s losing 30 kilo before September 10 2013. Because September 10 2013 is the date that I have been doing this weight losing program a year. So I have now only 3,4 kilo left. So because I have lost so much already have I a long period of time to lose the rest. Because now am I going more and more over to “normal” food, and off the Very Low Calorie shakes.

This is the hard part. Normal food means more fat, calories, and everything els.

Now I have to find out a normal life with food, so I don´t put on the weight I have lost. Because that´s not what I want. I will never be so big that I was ever again. So this will be a huge fight with between my self and my body.

I have lost 1,4 kilo over Christmas and a week before. That means a total weight loss of 26,6 kilo. 
Got to love it!

*LovE*

24,9 kilo

Can you believe it. I was just 100 gram form having a total weight loss at 25 kilo. 100 GRAM.

But yeah I´m still happy, I´m almost at 25 and I lost 2 kilo last week. That is really impressive. At list I think so.

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But now have I got to turn of the computer, because I have to get finished packing. It under a hour to I´m getting picked up and are hedding for the airport.
Dublin here I come. 

So enjoy you week, and maybe you will hear from me. I´m packing my iPad and as always dose I have my trusted iPhone with me, so maybe I will find some time and write to you all.

*LovE*

lost 22,9 kilo

Yeah, so I´m still getting smaller. I have now a total weight loss at 22,9 kilo. I had hoped that I would have lost closer to 25 kilo by know, but I´m happy eater way. And I had a start goal on a weight loss around 20-30 kilo by summer 2013, and I´m over 20 kilo so I should be more happy and pleased with my self then what I really am.

So I just have to go deep in to my self and find that happiness.

I have now over seven months to reach my new goal that are around 32 kilo. So from starting on 20-30 kilo to actually  see that I can make 32 kilo by summer 2013 are really huge for me. But back to what I have written in my contract with my self does it still stand 20-30 kilo by September 12 2013. So in one way can I say that I am already there.

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I have a new weighing on monday, so I have a little hope that maybe I can reach 25 kilo by then, but the will mean that I have to lose 2,1 kilo this week. I have to say that I think that is a lot.

But over to the eating part of this program. Until now have I just been eating the food (shakes, and bars) that are in this program, but for three days now have I been taking away one of the shakes and replacing that with normal food. So I´m now in the proses of going back to normal food. This is that part of the program that I have been a bit afraid of. It´s easy to just eat the food they give you, now I have to pick what to eat my self and I don´t want to gain any weight so I´m a little scared of this. But they are helping me along the way and giving me the tools to make the right decisions.

So today am I going to eat Mc Donald’s.

Just kidding. I´m not that stupid. I´m not going to ruin my good trend just so I can eat Mc Donald´s. Yes, I do miss it some times, but not so much that I´m going to blow my changes by lose all the weight  I want to just so I can eat that kind of junk food. I have learned my lesson, I hope!

*LovE*

20 kilo, can you believe it?

So I had a new weighing this week, well it was on monday. So it´s kind of like old news. I didn´t lose more then 1,1 kilo, but I did get to a total of over 20 kilos. Something I think is really, really good. It means that I have lost 20,1 kilo in two months, TWO MONTHS!!! That´s big. Or a lot! 🙂

And the truth is that I was hoping that I would lose that much before november 28, so everything is now a big plus for me.

But I have one problem. I only have one pants that fit me now, and even that one is stating to be a little big. So I have to start shopping soon, but sines I want to lose 10 kilo more I don´t really want to spend too much money on clothes right now. It´s no use when I might not fit them in a month or two. Right?

I have a new weighing tomorrow, but only if I get better. Because right now I don´t feel to well, and if I don´t get any better I will not go to work tomorrow, and if I don´t go to work I want to go to the weighing. Because I have to do a work-out at tomorrows weighing, and if I can´t work, I can´t work-out.

So here to hoping that I get better.

*LovE*

 

19 kilo

I have lost a total of 19 kilo now, and I’m so proved about it to. I just love it.
Last night I think I got the shock of my life, or at list the biggest shock in a wile.

That I have gotten bigger the last five or so years are no news to anyone and at list not to my self. I may have closed my eyes on it for a wile , but I have always known about it.

For a crismast party six years ago did I by my self a pans sut. Even when I bout it was it a little small, but they didn’t have it in a bigger size so I bought it. And sines I have not been getting bigger have the pants not been fitting me for some time now. I didn’t even know that I still had them, but last night when I did go true my closet did I fine them. After some “arguing” with my self did I try them one.

Why the arguing?
Well what if they still didn’t fit? What would that do to me? That could have been a really big downer. So there for did I argue with my self.

But guess what?
I didn’t need to think about it at all. They fit, not only does they fit, but they fit better now then what they did when they where new. So that means that I’m smaller now then what I was for about six years ago.

Talk about a big turn around.

I’m not only smaller then I have been in a wile, I can now say that I’m smaller then what I was six years ago. For me is that kind of big, big news.

And the thing is that I really really like the “new” me.

Last week did I lose 1,9 kilo and the week before that 2,9 kilo. I hope for big numbers this week to, but right now am I getting a little afraid to get my hopes up. Hoping for to much is only going to be self destructing if I get low numbers, but I have to say that I hope on a total wight loss on at list 25 kilo before I go to Dublin December 4. That will say that I want to lose 6 kilo in four weeks. That means that I have to lose a 1,5 kilo at list every week, and that’s a lot. So I’m not to set on that. But hers to hoping.

*LovE*

Not always Easy

It´s not always Easy with Easy Life, but right now I´m really happy about it. I have now lost almost half of what I want to lose. I have now lost 14,2 kilo and that is something I´m really happy about.

The last two weeks has I lost 3,8 kilo. I have to say that I had hoped that it would have been a little bit more, but when I look at the whole picture and see that I have lost 14,2 kilo in total in about six-week. Well then I have nothing to be disappointed in. Because if I may say so, and I will, that is pretty dame good.

But it´s not always easy going to the shakes and the stuff I´m eating. Sometimes is it hard, and special it people say bad thing. It´s not that I need people to see that I have lost wight, but when my friends say stuff like one of my friends said it´s hard. She right out said that she couldn´t see any different. And that´s okay kind of, it´s Okay that she don´t see it, but it´s not okay to say it like that.
I´m not good at seeing stuff like that my self, wight loss, a new hair cut or color and so on. But if I know that someone has lost a few or a lots of kilo, I don´t tell them that I don´t see it. I then I don´t say anything at all.
So I mean that my friend should not had said anything at all, that would have been better.

Some may say that friends should get to say that they don´t see it. But No!, they should not.
I love my friends and I also love the friend that this to me, but right now I feel that our friendship are kind of one-sided.
She say what she want to me, and if I take it the wrong way then I´m the bad one. But if I´m not agreeing with her, well them I´m the bad one. So have is that fair?

If she can say what she means and what she thinks all the time, then why can´t I?

And when I need a helping hand, well then it´s so difficult for her to help me. And the excuse is that she has kids. But when she needs help I have to come running at once. Because I don´t have kids, so I have nothing that stands in the way. It´s like she thinks I don´t have a life.

FRIENDS!!

It should always go bout ways right?
It should be give and take, not give and give so the other one could take and take right?

But enough of that. I should really take a talk with her and fix things, so this is it. I will not bother you guys with this any more.

I will just be happy about my 14,2 kilo light body, and don´t bother about what others say or thinks.

*LovE*

“New” Music on my ipod

So I´m just putting some “new” songs over to my iPod now, before I´m going to the gym. To day am I going to get a new work out program that fits with the Easy Life program. I should have done that when I started with the program, but I have just been pushing a head of me and not done it. Until now.

So I have like a half hour with one of my favorite guys down at the gym, Martin. I´m so looking forward to get the new program and then really get started with the real work out for Easy Life. Maybe that will help me get a better weight loss next week?

Only time will tell.

All I really have left before I´m going to the gym is getting my iPod ready.

One of the “new” songs is Taylor Swifts – Begin Again. There is a lot for Taylors songs on it for before, so this belongs there to, and another song that is also finding it´s way over to the iPod is Taylors new song Red. 

Also some of my brothers favorites are getting on it. So of them are a little out of my comfort zone, but I´m trying them out.

But I though I would share one song with you now.
So her is Begin Again with Taylor Swift.

On my way out the door now.

*LovE*

By the way if you have some music you would like to share with me, I would love it. 

Lost 1,9 Kilo

Still going strong on the Easy Life program. This week the lost was 1,9 kilo. Had hoped for a little more, but did fair a lot worse.

I have now been following the program for three weeks and has a total loss of 9,5 kilo.

I´m in me third week as I already said, and I´m now waiting for the bad weeks. The weeks with little to no weight lose, someone says it will come after the first 5 kilo. But that I lost the first week and I´m still going strong. So i was waiting for the seconded week to be the start of the bad weeks. Something that didn´t happen, so I was for sure it would come this week. But again it didn´t happen. So I´m still waiting.

The thing now is that there is not many weeks left before I´m going to start eat something more than just what the program is “giving” to me. With that I mean regular food, before I´m going back to the program food again. So I just hope that the slow week or weeks ether comes now, or don´t come at all.

It´s hard doing this and doing it alone, and not with a group, luckily will it soon be a group. This is a plus because then we can share what we are going true and help etch other that way.

My main goal next week is to lose more than 0,5 kilo. Because then I will have rounded 10 kilo in total. I hope for more than that, but I really really want to round 10.

Weight loss is not easy, but right now I have found a way that helps me get closer and closer to lose the kilo I want to lose.